Legends.: May 2009

Sunday, May 31, 2009

心突然之间很难受～～
这个世界真的很不公平～～
很努力去爱却很恨。。。
很尽力去忘却无法忘～～
很想得到的东西却得不到～～
还有两年的生涯。。。
对自己说不管多痛苦都得熬下去。。。
路是自己选的。。。
不管怎样都的走下去。。。。。。。
可是真的不知道自己能忍受到几时。。。。。。。。.
现在爸总算给了我一点自由。。。。。。
可是却觉得自己被绑得越紧了。。。。
失去了呼吸的能力。。。。
努力地挣扎。。。。。。。。

didn't have time to blog yesterdaY ......
went to Butterworth again ~~ =D
the pub again lo ~
singing and and ... haha ~ Drinking ....
i think i have drank 3 glass of tiger beer lo ....xD
hmm ........ band ............ *sigh*
only a few people came yesterday ........
we only have ........ haizzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZ ....
doesn't feel the feelings of band ...............
and ......................................
someone's words did really hurt me yesterday .....
as if i'm their betrayer ................
BETRAYER .......................
just say cannot if u dun wanna borrow ........
why wanna say till like ...... argh .................
Argh ........... or . i am over sensitive ??? huh .....
i dunno ..... but it's so hurt ...........
Like i wanna make my own badan uniform die ...
and helps the other badan ????!!!!
all of us are from Peng Hwa ~
Why cant we just cooperate ????!!!!!
*sigh*
work so hard ...... but u all still treated me as a betrayer ??!?!!
i dunno ...... but this is just my feelings ~
argh !!!!! Speechless ~~~~~~~~

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today ~
IT'S MY SISTER'S BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!!
hehehe ~~~~~
bought a big cake for her and went to shopping mall ~
=D
bought lots of things for her leh .....
hhee.......
sure very happy liao lah ~ =]

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ahhhh......
my head is spinning now man ~~
really do need a rest now ~
bye ~

Thursday, May 28, 2009

my heart is becoming weak and weaker .......
it's fragile ~~
almost breaks into pieces ~~
is it hurt ??? no .....
is it happy ??? no ......
is it sad ??? NO ..............
BLANK ~~
blank ~~~~~~~~~
THE BLANKNESS ~~
KILLED ME ~~~~~~~~~~~
my heart lost its soul day after day ~~~
maybe one day it will die ..........
means doesn't work anymore ???!!! HA ~
today .......... something bad happened ........
not me.......... my friend ................
how could she do that just for the marks ???!!!!
argh ~~ she is not as good as i think .........
* why all the people that i trusted always been like that ???!!! *
haiz .. i'm speechless ~~
am i hurt ??!! NO .... but it's just pain ~ LOL
dunno what am i talking also ~ ==
luckily tomorrow has band practice .....
finally can touch my lovely tenor sax .... haha
wanna play till syok Syok ... LOL
hmm ..... i have plans for tmr but since i have band so i cancelled it .....
hmmmm .... i guessed it wont be so much fun ......
sit on the chair and blow for the whole day .......
hmm ........ i have to make fun with my tenor !! aha
and non-stop chit chatting with CY .... hehe
try not to be bored ~~~~
i wanna stop now .........
damn no mood ...................
wanna go and play my instrument liao ~
Bye .......

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

it's so bored without music these few days ~~
i wanna go to band practice now ~
bored ~~ SUPER BORED !!!!!!!!!!!!!
quite meaningless these few days ~~
ermmm .......
yesterday got my science results .......
i thought i will get 50 something ........
but i got 72 marks for my science !!!!!!!!!!!!
ahhahhahahah !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i didn't study for it but i got 72 marks !!!!!!!!!
hahah ~~ i am proud of myself !!! bravo ee teng !! LOL ..
hehe ~~ although it's very low marks but i still very satisfied with it ~
=] /.. haizz ... nvm liao lo ~~ i must do better in the trial exam ...
hmmmm.......
2 weeks more ............ will we be able to finish all the things ??!!
hmmmmmmmm MMMMMMMM ............ *pa pa*
still remembered the year of 2007 ......
wah ... that day of the compeititon ...... haizz .. i .....
the feelings of the state competition is the most scariest things for me ....
ahh .. bo yong .... no matter what am i doing....... i also will become nervous easily ....
also included talking lo ~ see ??!! i am so damn bo yong ~
hmm ... i'm waiting for the arriving of the holidays ....... =p
must pia very HARD instead of relaxing ~ hmm ,....

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the blankness inside my heart killed me ~~

Monday, May 25, 2009

hahaah ~~
the exam is finally over !!!!!!!!!! oh yeah !!! yeah !!!
hahah ~~~ hhmmmmmmm.......
what am i going to pia for the next things ???!!
of course is .................................................
B lahhh ......... the competition is just around the corner .....
hmmmmm ............... must jia you !!!!!!!!!!! hhehee .......

today got the civic results , 94 marks .... hmm ...
i planned to get over 95 ..... but ... haizzz .....
quite beng kui when i saw the results ....
nvm liao lo ~~ results is getting "CHARM" & "CHARMER" .. .
hehe ...... the emoticon is quite annoying ~ XD

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这一切一切就让它过去吧。。。
当作发了一场美丽的梦就足够了。。。。。

Friday, May 22, 2009

woooOOOO ~
Finally can rest for a day .........
i thought i can pay enough effort for the exam .....
but .......... who knows ??!!
monday....... ok lahHh~~
tuesday .............. it's ok too ~~
wednesday ................ hahah ..... KK lah ~~
BUT ........ wednesday night .........
something bad happened ...................
my dad not feeling well again ..................
like wanna faint and totally cant breathe well ..........
heart problem again ................
my mom was too worried ..............
then 2 of them rushed to the hospital ......
left only me and my sister ............
haizzzz ...........................
SERIOUSLY ~~~~~~~~
i had totally lost my mood to study ...............
threw away all those science reference books ...........
haizzzzZZZZZZZZZ ~~~~
my sister was really frightened ..........
like wanna burst out her tears liao lah .....
but i managed to stay her calm ...................
haizzzZZZZZZ ......... NON-STOP giving her food to eat ....
played games with her ................ wahhhh ..............
damn sleepy ........... that time it was already 1 o'clock ++ in the midnight ......
but my mom didn't back yet .............
and the worst is ....................... i haven study for my science ........
the exam included f1 f2 and F3 !!!!!!!!!!!!
wat the ~~~~ h..............................
haizz ........ die liao lo ....... si liao lo ......... haizzz .........
haizzzz ............... me ..............
i admitted ..... things influence me easily ..............
i really should control myself bout this ................
i cant do things well when i am in a bad mood .......
sometimes ......... i gone insane because of my bad mood ........
and do all those stupid things ............
damn it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i really do try hard to control my mood .........
but sometimes it's just could't be controlled ........
my father have already reached 60.......
and he has many health problem .....
will he be able to see me graduated from university ???
i dunno ......... i really dunno .................
my grandma had already lost the chance to see me graduated .......
grandma ........... i do miss u alot !!!!!!! ALOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and ......... as the eldest daughter in this family .........

i should :

1. get good results and make both of my parents happy ...
2. must take good care of my sister .............
3. get good results and find a good job in the future ....
4. must take the responsibility to bring up the whole family after my dad ........

maybe u will think that i am crazy ........ BUT ...... i am not ..........
i am planning things early ..... as i know my dad ...........
i .......... haizzzzz .................
that's why i keep work hard on everythings ........
to be a successful human in the future ......
i want to reach the GOAL ~ ......
it's not i want ......... it's a must !!!!!!!!
sometimes........... pressure 'overloaded' me ~ LOL
now .............. haizzzzzzzz .........
still worrying bout my exam ....................

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

dad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
be fine on the way to hospital !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
goddddd will bless u dad ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
nothing happen plsssssssssssssssssssssss ...........................
argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why it always happen at the night !!!!!!!!!!
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