Wednesday, March 31, 2010
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Wednesday, March 24, 2010
They have tied me to a stake.
I cannot fly.
But bear-like I must fight the course.
I MUST BE STRONG .
Posted by ♀♪♠Ëê ҬęńĠ♣♫♂ at 12:53:00 AM 0 comments
They have tied me to a stake. I cannot fly, But bear-like I must fight the course.
They They have tied me to a stake. I cannot fly, But bear-like I must fight the course. tied me to
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Sunday, March 21, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Something is missing ~
blank ~
what i feel ~
is just ~
blank ~
but
i know i must be strong ~
to deal with all those obstacles ~
I MUST BE STRONG
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Monday, March 8, 2010
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Vomit
Diarrhoea
Headache
and now my nose BLEEDING !!!!!
WHAT the hell happening to me ?????!!!
ARGHHHHHH.......
BAD THINGS never stop happening to ME !!!
='[
Posted by ♀♪♠Ëê ҬęńĠ♣♫♂ at 4:20:00 PM 1 comments
try hard to do well ~
but at the end ''the fell'' spoiled everything ~ =.=
argh~
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Thursday, March 4, 2010
Monday, March 1, 2010
Saddest moments in my life ~
the tears just cant stop flowing ~
suddenly, i realized that mom loves dad more than anyone else do~
she just keeps mentioning about dad ~
tears flow when she thinks about dad ~
i try not to shed a tear ~
because i know if i cry more then mom will hurt more ~
my sister ~ doesn't feeling really well these few days ~
non-stop vomiting fevering , crying ~
really no ideas what should i do to help my family ~
yes, she is still small~
but she is mature ~
it's kinta funnY~ but it's true ~
she knows what is death at her ages ~
so, it's kinta miracle ??
26 of February ~
i still went to traffic & band practice~
playing with my friends ~
laughing with my friends ~
enjoyed the time with my friends ~
but who knows ??
my dad passed away that day ~
i have already had 7 missed call when i was having band practice ~
but i didn't answer ~ i straight away press the button and ended the call~
continued to practice ~
oh yes ~ it's lunch time !
went out to eat with my band mates ~
i was shocked why i have so many missed calls ~
so i press the button and phoned back to the people who had gave me so many missed calls ~
*YOUR DAD PASSES AWAY*
i was froze by the 4 words ~
tears still to burst out from my eyes ~
my mouth hardened ~
i couldn't spit out a word ~
*hello* hello* DO U HEAR ME?*
i couldn't answer ~~
after a few seconds ~
i managed to spit out a word ~
which is yes in hokkien ~
switch off the phone ~
my band mates was shocked too ~
then i ran off the roads like a mad bull ~
made my feet ran faster to the school~
packed my things ~ saw our band teacher ~
she hugged me ~ try to comfort me ~
but it didn't works ~ my mind was empty ~
my body frozed
except the tears are still functioning very well ~
walked down the stairs with someooe accompany me ~
sat down the chair~
waiting for my aunt to arrive ~
didn't realized how much time it took to reach hospital ~
but suddenly i am in the hospital ~
searching for my dad ~
went into the lift ~ up to dunno which floor ~
cant see anybody !
went into the lift ~ down to ground floor ~
searching everywhere ~
saw everything ~
but not my dad ~
suddenly the phone rang~
it's my mom~
telling my aunt where they had placed my dad ~
we ran when we got the right direction~
i saw my mom & my sis ~
their faces were reddened ~
tears on their faces ~
yelling my name ~
saw my dad ~
in a van ~
no ideas why my dad's body blackened like a coal ~
my eyes stopped at my dad ~
frozed ~
as if it was fake~
as if i was dreaming ~
i cant help myself to go through the reality ~
arrived at pek hun sua ~
dad placed in his house ~
sister crying , vomiting diarrhoea-ing ~
me crying, still frozing ~
mom started to call dad's relatives ~
one by one ~
said dad passes away then burst out her tears ~
hardly believe mom can do that ~
she is very strong ~
the night came ~
dad's relatives came too ~
all shocked ~
looking at my sis & me ~
with a sympathy eyes ~
i dun like the feeling of being watch by people ~
many of them said omg , ur kia so small ~
har ? dun have sons ?? this sentence made me mad ~
but something do really make me feels warm~
thank you my band mates ~ and also the out band teacher ~
thank you so much ~
as everybody knows ~
when a person died ~ many things needed to be done ~
especially for a Buddhist ~
a 10kg of thing like a stick with things on its end ~
on my shoulders ~
it's very heavy ~ and i cant move fast ~
i havta run to chase the shi fu with this thing on my shoulder ~
i try very hard ~ because i wanna tell dad's relatives -I AM NOT A BOY ~ MAYBE I AM WEAKER THAN A BOY~ BUT I AM SURE I CAN DO THIS ~ BECAUSE I AM MY DAD'S DAUGHTER ~
my aunt told me ~ it's very seldom to see a girl carry this thing and run over to chase someone ~
my dad's relatives shed their tears when they saw the scene ~
i know i had prove it to them that i can do it ~
now big bruises on my shoulders ~
but i know it's worth it ~
one more thing~ thank you our headmistress Ms.Yeo ~ she came to see my dad & told me to be strong ~ she is a person that appeared in my dad's childhood ~ growing up together~
but my dad went to heaven first ~ sigh............
3 days ~
non-stop doing things ~
non-stop crying ~
but stop sleeping ~ =.=
28 of February ~
accompanied my dad to walk through the last journey in a human's life ~
everything ended ~
but the sorrow is killing our heart ~
please ~ i dun wish to see my mom crying anymore ~
i wanna be strong ~
but .............
sigh~
a person that i seen everyday ~
a person that i heard his voice everyday ~
a person that i loved ~
disappeared from our sight ,our ears , this world ~
but never our heart ~
but never our heart ~
i love you, dad ~
*i saw the angpau in the hospital that u wanna give me when it was my birthday. thank you daddy*
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