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Had lotsa fun during these 2 days !!! 

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拥抱。

原来，

一个拥抱可以把我冷漠的心暖和起来。

哑巴吃黄连 ，

有苦说不出 。

心力交瘁。

还只剩下52 天。 

不！！

我还有５２天　！！！！

不愉快的心情又向我袭来。

昨天糟透了。

今天糟得不得了。

=。= 

谢谢你的关心。

不过，

我不想影响你快乐的心情。

你让我自生自灭吧。

I'm so damn Mood less & Energy less.

失落。

心情糟透了。

i really don't understand you.

You really think too much. 

Really. 

原来我的关心成了你的忧伤。
纯粹的关心竟然会让你想得那么多。

Two years ago.
yeah. 
My friend misunderstood you.
She said she hated you.
And don't want to be friend with you.
And ask me don't want to be friend with you. 


i asked her why.
She said because you bluffed us.


i said: aiya, does it so important that L is death or not ?
She's alive now and we should be happy. Anyway, she's a good person and i like to be friend with her.
blah blah blah.
i tried to say whatever that's good about you.


Talking behind you ?
LOL 
Or else stand in front of you then talk whatever we want then hurt you ? 




I know i hurt you so deeply because the msg i sent it to you.
But, when i knew i was wrong.
i had tried very hard to apologize to you .
Think and think and think of the ways to say sorry to you. 
Tried to hold our friendship back.


But, 
there was no reply from you.
You said you don't know what to do.
You said you'd be more sad if losing me as a friend.
Now, what????
Do you know that is it so damn hard to stand between the yes and no.
Like stretching your body right and left all the times. 
That's why i want a yes or no from you .


That day you went to hospital.
i was so freaking worried about you.
Sent you a msg then waited for your reply.
But no.
I don't how will you think that time.
i thought you will think that i care about you just because i had hurt you. 
A sleepless night for me and finally i got your reply. 


i tried hard to hold back our friendship.
Ask you what i could do to make you better.
Apologized for a thousand times.
But,
you just keep hurting me with what you have wrote in your blog.
The truth is a fucking thousand times.
The msg u sent me .
it's always the opposite site from what you post in ur blog.
i send you msg.
you reply on your blog.
i send again.
u do the same.
WHY can't you reply me in msg form ????
WHY can't you tell me what you think through sending msg to me.
Why must you post it to the blog ??
and said how hurt and how hurt are you?
and let me read it and let me hurt ?
is it a way of revenge ?
LOL.
and i don't want to act silly to ask you why through messaging anymore.
It's just useless.
i posted it here today because i couldn't hold on my sadness any longer.
Everything has its limits, isn't.
Because i saw what you post again.
LOL. 


You keep asking me why i don't trust you.
I've already told you that trust is not a thing that could simply say.
It gains from the times and obstacles 2 persons been through.
If a person says she really really trust then she is bluffing you.
She can't say she don't trust you right.
It's just her thought.
Not from her heart.
Trust is not a thing that comes up one day or two. 




And days passed by, 
why not let the past  flow by the times ?
You always tell me to, isn't? 




What's done is done, what's said is said.


Are you trying to tell me that the friendship could not be rescue again??


If anything happens to you,
i will care about you no matters when it happens and how it happens .
I have tried anything to hold our friendship back, didn't I ? 
I know you're hurt.
But do you know that I'm hurt too? 

sigh,

there are too much misunderstandings between us. 

Randomm ;)

不辛还是大辛？

糟了。

姨丈的右眼瞎了。

拼命地找医生。

可全部都说没得医了。

说这是百年一见的病情。

唉。

他还年轻着呢。

谁能介绍介绍一些不错的眼科医生呢？ 

老天，

拜托你让姨丈好起来。

Pressies.

Don't have any ideas that why i got so much pressies recently.

HA. 

To motivate me to go through the exam weeks ?? 

LOL. 

Shopped @ the 1st Avenue yesterday.

When the moments i passed through a souvenir shop.

It amazed me.

LOL.

I saw all of my favourite things.

Oh yea.

Which are exactly the musical instruments again. 

Oh Lame.

LOL.

I didn't say anything .

But my face already stick onto the glass.

lol.

And there they are ....
*Mama bought it for me*
*winks* 

These 2 aren't my favourite favourites .

I can't get my favourite favourites because it cost RM200 ++

RM200 ++ !!!

But I should be grateful isn't ?

hehe.

Mom,

if you dump me on the road , LOL,

i will also love you forever.

=) 

*i guess i'm recovering.*

=)

i'll be back.

梦。

我老师说，

梦往往与事实相反。

原来一点都没错。

如果那个梦能把我带进真实的世界。

那该多好。

多好。

哪怕是那一刹那的时光。 

爱的另一面是恨，

恨的另一面是爱。

知道的人有很多，

领悟的人有多少？

你不知道的事。

蝴蝶擦几次眼睛 才学会飞行 
夜空洒满了星星 但几颗会落地 

我飞行 当你坠落之际 
很靠近 还听见呼吸 
对不起 我却没捉紧你 

你不知道我为什么离开你 
我解释不能说放任你哭泣

你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
在心里惊醒 

你不知道我为什么很小心
可现在你看不见的高空里
多的是 你不知道的事 

The Whys & Hows .

DAMN.

I'd let it go.

I'd forgotten.

But,

They bring it up again.

Sigh.

Stop asking me who is the champion and blah blah blah. 

It actually let me think of those and those things.

Sigh.

Why can't I let it go ? 

Sigh .

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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!!!!!!!!!

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! 

一个人是不会懂另一个人，

如果真是懂了，

就不会寂寞了。