today ~
went to band as usual ~
all the things that happened in the class ...
i also dunno .......
my friend cried today ~
and .......
i didnt know .........
how could i ??!!
sry ............
i hope u will be fine now ~ =]
hiaz ..........
my life seemed so .......
so what ??!!
=.=''''''''''''''''
and ........
i want to join that *&^%$#$ band !!!!!!!
dunno how to name it ~~~~~~
haizzzzzzzz ............ my dad !!!!!!!!!!!
stopped me from going on my dreams again !!!!!!!
argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wanna earn money and going on my life without u~
=.='''''''''''
haizzz......
hmm ....
why i made it 2 post ??!! XD
damn damn damn damn !!!!!!!!
erm...........
moody ??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
angry ????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
frustrated ????!!!!!!!!!!
haizzz ..............
see lah !!!!!!!!
i am so................
haizzzzzzzz...........
bye lah ~
=.=''''''''''''

my dad .................
MY DAD !!!!!!!!!!!
argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HOW COULD HE DO THAT TO ME ???!!
i am so tired and exhausted .....
i dun wanna argue with him again ....
he say yes mah yes lo ~
no mah cant lo ~
i am her daughter right ??!! HAHAHA
i am the robot ...........
and he took control of me ........
*cause he got the remote control* XD
haizzzzzz ............
i hate him !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he always been the blockage of my life !!!!!!!!!!!
birthday party ???!!!
NO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hang out with friend ??!!!
ABSOLUTELY NOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
band practice .......
today untill 3pm.....
but the time table wrote until 2 ........
then ~~~~~~~~~~
U SAID I LIED ON U ????????!!!!!!!!!!!
argh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u always been like that !!!!!!!!!!!
u trust a paper more then me !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate u !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hope u just disappear in my life .......
i bet that will make me more comfortable ...
argh ......... SPEECHLESS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now that you're gone,

It's too dark at night.

It's constantly cold.

And nothing seems right.

Now that you're gone

It hurts to be alone.

I can't stand it here without you

Afraid and on my own.

Now that you're gone

My world means naught,

I'm sorry for what I said,

And all the times we fought.

Now that you're gone,

I can't seem to find my smile.

I didn't think I'd lose it yet,

At least not for a while

Now that you're gone,

I can't help but yearn

For the love that we had

And the day that you'll return

Now that you're gone

And have left me behind

I'm loosing my focus

And have already lost my mind.

Now that you're gone

Nothing else will matter

Each day I'm without you

My heart won't cease to shatter

Now that you're gone

All it does is rain,

The heavens seems to weep,

As if they feel my pain.

Now that you're gone

I just want to cry,

Because I curse that night you left,

When we had to say good-bye.

Now that you're gone

I only want one wish,

For you to come back

And give me just one hug

MyNiceSpace.com

i love this song man !!!! XD

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

it's so cold ...
so blank .............
the blankness ...........
killed me ......................
it's just so blank ...............
today ..............
for the whole day ............
dreaming in the class .........
but this is normally what i do in the class .....
dreaming ..........
reading my story book ..........
i wont listen to the teacher ........ XD
whatever lah ~
haizzz...........
today weather it's so damn hot ......

today ~
hmm ............
went to new sunshine farlim shopping mall ~
guess what ???!!!!
and went to see a .... erm .......
a person that see through yourself by analysing your finger print ???!!
hahaa ~~ i dunno how to name that person ...... XD
hahah ~~ ~ hmm .......
that man scanned my finger print after i sat down on the chair ...
1st finger ...... 2nd finger ........ 3rd finger ........
hahaha ~~ after that that man started to blah-ing liao ~ XD
hmmmmm...........
blah blah blah blah ~ ~~
guess what ................
that man really shocked me man !!!!!!!!!
what he have said to me it's almost all correct !!!!!!
about my personality ........
my ambitious ..........
my hobbies ..........
WALAO ~
he is like the worm in my stomach ~~ XD
and ............
he know that i am unhappy because of something .....
and he told me how to solve it .........
every problem that i have .......
hmmmm .........
i will try to take his advise ~ =]

unhappy memories ...........
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hmmmmmmmmmm .............................
anyway ......... thanks to that guy ~ =D

ANOTHER day passed again ~
AGAIN ~
the time is running too fast ~~
TOO fast for me to chase for it ~
but sometime .....
i hope the day to go faster ......
cause i hate all those boredom that filled in my life ....
go to school ~
the bells ring . then go back home ~
that's what i do everyday .................
EVERYDAY ~
without stepping out of this house /.....
i hate my dad alot !!!!!!!!
ALOT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dun allow me to go anywhere except this freaking scary house .......... =.='''''
do i have to get a SURAT KEBENARAN for u to prove that me and ....... have had already broke up ????!!!!
can u pls stop nagging on me everyday ???!!!!!
i want to have my own time !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and give me some privacy pls !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
stop checking my inbox !!!!!!!!
and my computer too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH !!!!!!! do u know bout human right ???!!!
chatting on the phone ........ u SCOLD ~
reading my story books ~~~ u SCREAM ~ =.=
playing my instrument ~~~~ u ... haizz z
care bout my friends and my cousin .........
u JEALOUS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey guys ~~ it's not that i am childish or what ...
it's really happened ..... and i have proof !!!!!
he scolded me when i took the umbrella for my friend !!!!!
my friend ....... haven recover from her sickness .......
cant expose to sunlight too much ............
then i borrow her my umbrella .................. then ............. GET SCOLD !!!!
WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING NOW ???!!!
is he CRAZY or INSANE ?????!!! or LOST his mind ??!!
and !!!!!!!! last time i brought a cake for him that cost me RM30 !!!!
as a results .... he scolded me because i have wasted my money .....
WHAT TH E >>>>?????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok .... last year ... i didnt brought for him but i brought for my mom .....
then he said me love my mom more then him...............
walao! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why i have this kind of father ?????!!!!!!!!!
just hoping that i will grow faster then have my own life .........
MY OWN LIFE ..............
i hate u ~ ~~~~~~~~
because of u ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I couldn't dare to be together with the person that i love .....
i dun wanna make u heart attack ........
then i treated her badly just to make we broke up ......
i did hurt her too much...... TOO MUCH ....
more than i have expected ...........
i wont forgive myself ..............
i did that for ur sake .......
but u !!!! did u ever do anything that cheers me ???!!!
ok .... my cousin ...........
MY COUSIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haizz ........
i dun wanna talk bout it anymore ...........
I WANNA HANG OUT WITH FRIENDS JUST LIKE A NORMAL TEENAGERS !!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i miss u ............
badly ..............................

Bass Clarinet ~

wondering when will u appear in front of me ??!!!
haizzz ~~
no one use the new and gorgeous instrument !!!!
I REALLY HOPE TO TOUCH U MAN ~
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u had been stayed in the case for nearly 1 year man !!!!
i know u are lonely ~
i am so sorry ~~~
if i didn't change section i think u wont be that lonely ~
sorry ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~