i love it.i love it.i love it.i love it.i love it. .....

Awwww...

i realllllllyyyyyyyyyy 

loveeeeeeeeeeee

itttttttt.

LOL.

Thanks 
so
So
SO 
much 
ya. 


=) 

hehe..

忆。

驾着驾着。

无意中驶到爸的公司。

心想，
如果是我送他上班。

他，
会是很开心的。
对吧。


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

连绵不断的爆竹声令我忆起。。。。

昔日的欢乐。

不知道爸和弟弟在那里过得怎样。
如果能去看一看那该多好。

I am dead . Am i ?

Sigh.

I guess mommy is forgetting that i am having exams after the holidays.

She just non-stop bringing me here and there.

And now,

i am just back from SOMEWHERE & SOMEWHERE else.

Oh yea.

An awesome holiday.

BUT.

Shitty.

I should be touching my books every second counts now.

LOL

I AM JUST DEAD.

I AM JUST SO DEAD.

=( 

Gosh,

she is gonna take me to the floating book fair tomorrow !

@.@

YOU.

MAKE ME LOSE A FRIEND.

YOU.

ARE SUCH A BIG LIAR.

YOU.

ARE SUCH A HYPOCRITE.

YOU.

GRAB MY HAPPINESS.

YOU.

MAKE ME SUFFER.

YOU.

WHY YOU WANT TO DO SO ?

WHYYY ???!!!!!

伤心的人，

不只是你。

痛苦的人，

不只是你。

流泪的人，

也不只是你。


有个人，爱过了，就结束了。
有句话，说过了，就后悔了。
有道伤，痛过了，就麻木了。
有颗心，颤过了，就破碎了。
一段亲情，过密了，就断绝了。
一段爱情，过深了，就剧终了。
一段路口，过难了，就错选了。

 一段友情，过近了，就稀释了。

到底要拖拖拉拉到什么时候？








天气转凉了。
真的好冷好冷。
快把我的心给冻着了。

I like it . Thanks =)

The hardest day of my life. 

Damn. 

I am just so freaking worried about you for almost the whole day.

Can't you just send me an alphabet or something ?

To let me know how are you now ??? 

Sigh.

Playing my erhu like a mad & crazy bull.

KFBOWUEFWEGRWOIRHOWRY398RU32RHOWIET2397RY3QOIR1083RG8ROFHSOHRSUSRIUHGFURSGRKSJBFIUSKGFIUSHBFJKSBHFIUSHGKSJGBFSLJGFUISGHSKJRGBFKSGUQOIEWRHGPIWEHRP9WRYWOEHFSLKJBFUISGFOWEIGFPIGSGFOIESTGOSIRPGHRKUGHIUGHRWOIGSOIRGHKFHIFDUHGRWIOGHIRWOGPWEOGHPWEI9HGW

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Family Driver.

Does anyone need a family driver ?

HA. 

I'M MAD.

I'M FRUSTRATED.

I'M SAD.

I'M HURT. 

I'M HELPLESS. 

Can i just die ? 

对着灿烂的星空吹起了美丽的旋律。

美妙的笛声，

是否能感动上天？

您是否听见我的心声？ 

KLL

LKKNK

FDSNFLKDSF

FNDSLFNLDSKFNLD

LDFKNLSDKNFSDKFNSDLKF

JN 38CYBR7TVBITCROTUNW9UEVN'IG

EIHR;OIBEVWOWYVOWRYTOYIGRIOY;ORWIYNO

RBOVROGVRUHGB;ORVGHBREUTYRUTYORWIGYRW98G

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!

!

心很碎。

再怎么喝也不会醉。

只不过是生命的循环。

有点累。

有点喘气。

告诉自己。

要每天活得开心。

别再 EMO 了。

=。=

Sometimes, 

the brain and body can't match.

The brain wants to go left.

But the body goes right instead. 

Do you guys know what am i thinking ?

LOL 

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It's so hard to keep a secret. 

朋友很多，

但，

知心的没几个。

因为这样而孤独对吧？ 

是的话，

我与你身同感受。

说了一大堆废话，
心里舒服多了。

我希望把心里的负面全都抛出来。

伤心的事都别记了。

最好想都别想。

收拾心情准备考试。

我们俩

加油吧。

为着灿烂的生命拼搏吧 ！

恨。

绝对不会让你看贬我们家。

你一家怎样对待我们。

我历历在目。

一个丧夫之妇。

一个5岁男童。

一个3岁女童。

你也不择手段地谋财害命。

你想。。。

我就绝对奉陪到底。

等着瞧。

走向法律这条路。

再把昔日种种的案子翻起来。

取获胜利。

把公公与爸爸的一切归还。

当日你在。

所作所为。

人神共愤。

我，

心里焚烧着火恨。

原来，

只有自己能把自己救起来。

别人对你再多的鼓励与支持都是无济于事。

God, 

Please take away my heart.

I can't stand it anymore. 

Nightmares.

Yesterday night.

I had nightmares again.

I dreamt that we had another chance the fight for the formation competition.

It was the right place and right atmosphere. 

The competition started at right time too.

The night was so bright with the spotlight shines on the field.

We marched in with confident .

And started all over the formation.

The end :

We lost again. 

=( 

ARGH.

A stupid dream wasn't it ?

But i didn't get my leg hurt in the dreams.

LOL.

Sigh.

Anyway,

it's so freaking devastated to get the sad feelings twice.

TWICE.

Last but not Least,

I think i miss band pretty much.

I mean VERY much. 

Wondering will i have chance to march on the field with the beating of drum solos again ?

Arghhhh

Mission IMP.

MISSION IMPOSSIBLE.

But,

will it be 'mission i m possible ' in the future ?

HA. 

思。念

记得小时候，

你牵着我的小手，

把我带到渡轮的栏边。

和我一起观赏大海的神奇与奥秘。

您对我述说您在海上的工作情形与体验。

如今，我一人独自探讨海的奥秘。

它依然是那样神奇、那样美丽。

但，

您却不知何处去。

人面不知何处去，

桃花依旧笑春风。

Met an old friend .

Which is a traffic & orchestra senior to me.

The one i heart.

Feel so great when chatting with her.

Because i feel like forgetting the high pressures that press over me. 

She gave me lot of advices about my future.

So much thanks to her.

Thank you.

When she wanna leave she said :

Don't ever stop laughing .

=) 

But the fact is 

I never wanted to stop to laugh.

i just forgot the way to laugh. 

You can't see someone's feelings through your naked eyes.


She put a fake smile on her face to hide the unhappiness, sadness & depression.


She never wants to do it.


But,
 she is so tired of the hows & whys.


Sometimes saying out the  problems will not help anything.


The problems will still be there and another person suffers for the same problems.
It's better to keep deep inside the heart.


So,
stop throwing the hows & whys to me.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


Somehow,
the sweet dream is a nightmare to me.


I started to feel confused.


Where is the real world & where is the fantasy dreams ?


i'm lost in the world.


Am i really exist ?

Right or Left ?

Dammit. 

Why is it so hard to make choices ? 

Feel so damn miserable nowadays. 

Although it's just the matter of right and left.

But still,

it almost makes my mind  exploded. 

Sigh.

A thousand of things to be worried. 

How could i concentrate on my studies ? 
='( 

Schizophrenia。

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