MY HEART SOUND

finally finally finally.........
exam finished ler....... then ............
i am sure my results will like ...... SHIT ......
and i have a lot of thing to say since i din post so many day.....
since that day ...... GRADUATION CEREMONY ............
i saw all band mates blog........
almost all about the graduation ceremony......
all was like so sad cause f5 are leaving ..........
i read their blog word by word ..................
and my heart.................................
broke piece by piece............
although f5 are leaving but they all have beautiful memory in this year with the f5......
all post happy and sad thing........
but .... only me ......... only me that only post sad thing............
cause i din have happy memory in this year band life..........
they all have happy memory in this year ...........
but only me that only have SUFFER and SADNESS..........
i have nothing to say about this year band life..........
only 1 word to describe........... SUFFER .............
looking all the picture they posted.................
all so happy in the picture................
smile .... laugh...... enjoy..............
busy capturing picture with the f5..................
and .. my heart........ BLEEDING ....................
am i a band member ????!!!!!!!!!!!
NO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but....... all the way long in band.......
i did have a short happy memory........
when i was f1 ...........................................
except this .. i think i have nothing in band ler...........
just a rubbish performer......
got performance then go perform.............
no performance then practice practice practice...........
so far in this year .........
i was like never give out a true and happy SMILE .......
then.... december band training camp...........
i maybe change section ler......................
then..... many many many thing will happen ..........
haizzzzZZZZZZ ............
if thing change....... i really want to be a clarinetist once more......
but thing doesn't change easily .......
it will remain the same ............
i ....... sry ys and sc..............
i always think like that ...............
if i am not clarinetist when i was f1...........
then i will still need to suffer all this /?????????
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haizzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ........
i am nothing in band ...........................................
i hope to be a junior once more ........................
then i dont have suffer so many ....................
although i din have happy memory with the f5...
but i was sad too .....................
dunno why i just like more sim tia compare to ys and sc that year......
especially some one..........
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....................