i am such a love failure ~

read someone's blog just now ~
yeaa ~ they are so sweet and happy compared to me and XX ....
i wish xx & i also could be like them ..
but it's so damn impossible ........
because of my /////////////........... *sigh*
both of them ...........
i can see they sacrificed a lot of things for each other.....
put a lot of effort to make their partner happy.....
they love & care for each other.......
they are brave because they truly love each other without caring about what other people think ~
compared to them ........
i am such a LOVE FAILURE ~
i cant stop caring what people think about me and xx........
i want only my self-respect but not xx....
i am such a love failure ........