2day go to the band and chinese orchestra..........
haiz.... the sou na is really .....haiz
i really cant handle it.......
first time make me feel so ....................
after that i go to the band at 9 something.....
see xx !!!!!!!!! i have keep my promise........
and i very very very very very very............
keep thinking about the thing that XX told.....
i cant focus on the band practice..............
then i went away to somewhere..................
and i let all the thing in my heart out........
it was very comfortable........................
but i still thinking about that thing..........
why ???????????? why???????????????????????????
everyone force me to make my decision ?????!!!!
i .............................................
can u all STOP all of this ....................
GIVE ME A PLACE TO ALIVE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DONT MAKE ME SUFFER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it is good.....................................
when the decision haven make ..................
and i dun want to know what decision...........
i am gonna to make.............................
2day xx got come......................
feel so happy..................................
cause we finally see she ...... again..........
and when she is here i wont have the feeling
of alone even i am alone.......................
she make me feel i am in the band..............
really thx to u XX.............................
she will realise what i blow when i blow.......
not as same as ................................
nobody will care about me the bass clarinet....
i blow or din blow.............................
they also din realise..........................
i die or what they also dunno..................
but just 4 2day................................
i cant saw her......... again..................
haiz....... and the feeling of alone will
torture me again...............................
all the senior that care about me have
gone all......................................